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[ As soon as Matt leaves he heads back towards the castle, and the whole journey back he has a huge grin on his face. He can scarcely believe it. That they've done that, that he didn't freak out (or, well, too much, he did have a moment).

But fuck it was good, all of it was good, being with him. It just makes him know more than ever how much he wants him. And fuck he really wants him.

It's hard to concentrate when he's back, to focus on anything but what's going on with Nate. He worries, of course. His boyfriend might talk him round, or maybe he'll just change his mind. There's no guarantee he'll text. So he tries to pass time by working out and having an incredibly long shower.

In the lounge later, he's extremely aware of his phone in his pocket. ]

[It's almost 7 when Matt's phone buzzes in his pocket.]

Hey sorry about that. I just got in.

[ Matt's fidgeting through the day turned to concern, he had started to think he wouldn't be contacting him at all. Fuck, maybe Nate actually had seen sense and changed his mind. But then his phone goes off and he's never grabbed it so fast.

He waits a minute though before replying. Wants to look cool, obviously. ]

Everything okay?

Yeah, it's good. Not great, but good. Never had to break someone's heart before.

[ His relief makes him feel near sick. It's horrible to be relieved someone has broken up with someone, but god he really is. ]

What did you tell him?

That I thought we wanted different things. That I didn't want the life he was trying to build.

Bet he blamed it on me right?

He asked if it had anything to do with you being in town last night. I set him straight.

Well- you know what I mean.

[ normally Matt would take a joke like that and run with it, but today is anything but normal. ]

Are you gonna be okay?

Yeah

[And a few seconds go by before he adds]

You don't regret any of it, do you?

[ It takes him a while to reply to that one which... probably doesn't help Nate's constitution. When it comes, it's, well, succinct. ]

No.

[As short as that reply is, it makes Nate smile.]

Good

[ He isn't quite sure how to proceed. He knows he wants to, but getting there is easier said than done. So he probably gives it about half an hour before his next text. ]

So what now then?

[Nate tries not to worry between texts but it's difficult. So when Matt finally replies again, he answers right away. Not at all worried about looking cool tbh]

Not sure. Could start by telling me about that castle you live in.

Not sure I'm supposed to. Top secret and all that.

[ But then that text is followed up almost immediately by a series of about 5 pictures he's snapped on his phone from out in the grounds. ]

You're a crap secret agent. What if I was to sell these to someone? I could be the next Bond villain and you'd never know.

Bond villains don't care as much about ironing as you do.

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It's all been a very clever ploy. Okay but seriously what the hell do you do?

Sit around all day and play on the XBox. Spend about three hours in the gym. Oh and save the world every friday.

Oh is that all? You made it sound hard.

You talking about my job now or something else?

I'd be surprised if that was still a problem after all these hours.

I look at it more as a perk than a problem. A challenge to overcome. A goal to be achieved, that sort of thing.

So are you just sitting around hard?

lol no. But at least I know where your mind is now.