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And just think, that was my first time. [ There's a teasing in it, that he hasn't been with a bloke before so it's a brand new learning curve, that he can still be pretty damn good even despite that. But more than that, it's something else, like a silent promise that there will be a second time, and a third. He's not going to freak out and run off. Or at least he's going to do his very best not to. ]

Live up to expectations? [ he asks, and it could be smug, knowing how many years Nate has wanted to fuck him, but if he admits it, if he digs deep he knows that Nate isn't the only one who wanted it. So it isn't said with a grin, rather a genuine question, with a touch of almost vulnerability to it. What if he changes his mind, he'd have every right to. Nate has a boyfriend that loves him, he can understand the pull of something settled. ]