[ Lying would hurt him. Lying would hurt them both. Hurt him now and maybe that's for the best? A small pain to avoid a bigger one later. Rip off the plaster now, get it over with to protect him. He knows with Simon he could have the life he wanted. The life he used to want.
But he knows him. Fuck, he knows him, and he knows that look in his eyes. Send him back to Simon, and who really ends up happy? So it's simple, the answer. Simple and terrifying. He lifts a hand, before dropping it again, and speaking quietly. ]
I don't want you. [ he tries to make it stick ] I don't want you, Nate. There. Look. Does it make it easier?
[ but the lie can't even hold, he can't even try, because it's not right, is it? ]
No, it fucking doesn't, does it? Because you know the truth. You know, Nate. Come on.
I want you. [ a breath, and again with a little more conviction ] I want you.
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But he knows him. Fuck, he knows him, and he knows that look in his eyes. Send him back to Simon, and who really ends up happy? So it's simple, the answer. Simple and terrifying. He lifts a hand, before dropping it again, and speaking quietly. ]
I don't want you. [ he tries to make it stick ] I don't want you, Nate. There. Look. Does it make it easier?
[ but the lie can't even hold, he can't even try, because it's not right, is it? ]
No, it fucking doesn't, does it? Because you know the truth. You know, Nate. Come on.
I want you. [ a breath, and again with a little more conviction ] I want you.