[He knows it doesn't make sense. Logically, he knows that there's a lot of things he should be saying to Matt that aren't 'hey come have a drink with me.' But he can't. He knows too much about the way Matt was raised, about the shit that's in his head about what you should and shouldn't do.
And also he's still fucked up in love with the bastard. Being with Simon is great and it's not that Nate doesn't care about him, but its not at all the same.
Like how just knowing Matt is that close makes his heart start to race.]
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[He knows it doesn't make sense. Logically, he knows that there's a lot of things he should be saying to Matt that aren't 'hey come have a drink with me.' But he can't. He knows too much about the way Matt was raised, about the shit that's in his head about what you should and shouldn't do.
And also he's still fucked up in love with the bastard. Being with Simon is great and it's not that Nate doesn't care about him, but its not at all the same.
Like how just knowing Matt is that close makes his heart start to race.]